Love Letters

Chapter 402 Why are you crying?

In an instant, tears began to flow uncontrollably.

He shed tears in pain, like a homeless trapped animal.

As he cried, he suddenly laughed.

He Miao convinced Zhang Meili and He Dahai in advance so that they could forgive him in this life.

He was finally able to reconcile, no longer needing to seek redemption, no longer needing to end his own life, no longer needing to experience the so-called rebirth...

His hand rose uncontrollably, and soon stopped in mid-air. He closed his eyes, and tried his best to suppress the sadness in his heart. His palm gradually tightened and retracted.

Suddenly, she remembered what she had told him many times before: Even without her, he had to live well, he was her beloved Xu Mobai...

The sky gradually darkened and it seemed like it was going to rain.

His face was pale, and his calm voice changed a little. Looking at her smiling face, his eyes were full of grievance, and his voice was low and tired: You are so cruel, Miaomiao...

He closed his eyes, holding back the sour feeling, and said in a slightly hoarse voice with a slight tremor: "But I miss you very much."

The rain didn't come after all, but the wind seemed to change direction and the sun came out.

In the middle of winter, a warm south wind suddenly blew, and it was as bright as an April day.

Xu Mobai stayed until very late and only went back after saying goodbye to He Miao.

Nothing in the house had been moved, and He Miao's things had been left in their original places.

It was as if she was always by his side.

But she hasn't come back yet, and he is still waiting.

Afterwards, he returned to Shangjing City and started working and living like usual.

But he would visit her every month, bringing her a bouquet of flowers and a bottle of her favorite ice soda.

He began to experience the first day of He Miao's absence, the first month of her absence, the first year of her absence...

He had no way of contacting her, talking to her, or even seeing her again.

He eats, sleeps, and works mechanically every day...life has become simpler.

"Hello, Doctor Xu."

"Hello."

Xu Mobai, wearing a white coat, nodded slightly in response.

He went to work, treated patients, saved lives, and greeted his colleagues as usual.

"It seems like Dr. Xu is always alone and doesn't participate in team-building activities."

"He works so hard every day, doesn't he feel tired?"

"He has such good conditions, doesn't he have a girlfriend?"

"The people chasing him lined up from the hospital building to the bus station a few blocks away."

"I heard he was married."

"I haven't even met his partner. Is he divorced?"

"I heard that he died of illness."

"He had a wife who passed away, whom he loved very much."

"As a doctor, I'm always saving people, but I can't save the one I love the most. It's quite pitiful."

"What an infatuated man."

Looking at his busy figure every day, his colleagues felt a little regretful.

Xu Mobai was busy at work until very late. He looked at the time and it was almost twelve o'clock.

Looking out of the car window, the whole city was plunged into darkness.

He didn't turn on the lights in the car or the heater, he just sat there quietly.

Once upon a time, waiting for someone was also a warm thing.

But now, he neither waits for anyone nor is he waited for by anyone.

"Mo Bai, come out and have a drink."

"Mo Bai, do you want to travel?"

"Mo Bai, come to my house for dinner."

..........

Du Yuze and Hu Jiaxu still come to see him from time to time.

He was not used to lively scenes, and he did not want their comfort and company.

But because he knew they meant well, he did not reject their kindness.

The hustle and bustle of the time when He Miao existed seemed like a dream, and the days passed one by one when He Miao was not around.

Time passed so slowly that he thought he was living the same day and the same year...

How did you get through the days without her?

The last time was the same, during the semester we were separated, she said that she was no longer around, and we didn’t contact or see each other…

But she was there at that time.

No matter how much she pretends or denies, she exists somewhere in this world, living a healthy and happy life.

Yet even then, he had his pain and struggle, and his longing for her growing.

How much time does he have left?

Since I have already promised her, I have to do it no matter how difficult it is.

Time moved forward irreversibly, and he began to see the scenery they had agreed to see.

The scenery after the ages of eighteen, twenty-eight, thirty-eight...

That was something they had never seen before.

Now, he has no regrets, no remorse or pain.

As time goes by, Tamagawa City develops better and better, and the whole city is making progress.

Tamagawa No. 7 Middle School has expanded again, built many new teaching buildings, installed air conditioners in the classrooms, and renovated the cafeteria.

The school also built a new food street, the kind that He Miao had been talking about.

In the morning, it is as early as the school cafeteria. In the evening, I can stay until they finish their evening self-study. I can also eat a meal during the physical education class...

He wanted to bring her here.

On summer evenings, the campus track and field is still crowded with people.

Many people, young and old, were walking and some were running.

The evening breeze blows gently through the treetops, making a rustling sound.

Just look up at the sky and you can reminisce about the summer love of the past.

The breeze turns the yellowed pages of the book, like returning to the prime of life.

In an instant, I thought of the girl dozing against the window, the breeze blowing up the light green curtains, and the hazy and beautiful time was frozen in time.

Watermelon, soda, cicadas, in the humid summer air, the corners of the boy's clothes and the hem of the girl's skirt were gently lifted up.

The fan in the classroom was whirring, lifting the corners of the test paper.

There were still water droplets hanging on the bottle of iced soda. My wet hands, which tasted like pears, touched the pages of the book and smoothed out the blown corners.

.........

"Balloon! My balloon!"

With a girl's shout, the balloon broke free from the girl's hand and began to float high.

A cute girl, about five years old, wearing a pink dress, started running in the direction the balloon was flying.

The old man reached out, grabbed the rope, and pulled the flying balloon back.

"Thank you grandpa!"

After receiving the balloon, the girl thanked the old man and giggled in her childish voice.

"Miao Miao!"

A gentle female voice came, followed by the girl's excited voice, "Mom!"

The small figure ran away quickly and jumped into the woman's arms.

"Where have you been? Do you know that your mother is almost scared to death?"

While scolding, the woman hugged the girl tightly, as if she was a little scared, but also seemed relieved.

"Don't run around anymore."

"My balloon just flew away."

"Balloon? Isn't the balloon in your hand?"

"That grandfather helped me get it back."

The woman looked in the direction where the other woman's finger was pointing and saw a hunched figure.

"Have you said thank you to Grandpa?"

"said!"

The girl answered obediently.

"Then let's go back."

"it is good!"

The girl was led away by her mother, and she did not forget to look back before leaving.

"But that old man is crying!"

The cicadas are chirping noisily, the sun is scorching, and the strong longing is always weighing on my heart, unable to be expressed, just like this hot summer day, making people feel upset.

However, whether you like it or hate it, there is no way to stop summer from fading away with time.

And his time will also run towards autumn, the season without her, along with the summer, without any nostalgia.

"noob?"

"Xu Mobai, why are you crying?"